The other night I was rocking Mak, hoping that she would fall asleep soon so we could all get some much needed sleep. And she was in that stage where she was almost asleep but not quite. When she gets to that point and we are both very much relaxed I pray for both my girls and my sweet wife. Well I was praying specifically that Jesus would find them like He found me at such a young age, and that in return they would find Him back. It is one of those things that you can't help but worry about. All the "what-ifs" and what is more annoying about that is as much as you want to enjoy them the "what-ifs" are in the back of your head. It is one of those things. When I was younger I hated when people would say, "I wish Jesus would hurry up and come back." I always thought, "How sad, these people must be miserable in life to want it all to end." But I don't think that is what they were saying. I now LOVE life. I love my job, my family, everything. Sure I get annoyed from time to time but then who doesn't? I am now one of those people that say, "I wish Jesus would come back soon." And I love my life. I do. I want to see my kids grow up. I want to see them get married and have kids. I would love that. But I would LOVE even more to be in heaven where let's be honest... that is the goal of every Christian, to get to heaven and bring as many people there with us. As I was rocking little Mak to sleep, I couldn't help but think about how great it will be. And how much love our Heavenly Father has for us. I mean can you imagine? Sending your son down here to die for us. I would NEVER put my kids in that situation. Yet He did it willingly. And then Mary, raising Him knowing that He was sent here to save the world. Blows me away. Shows us what love really is. And I am excited for my girls to learn that. So I will keep praying, find them Jesus....like you found Me.
~Learning As I Go~