I have been doing some thinking and reading. And looking at my life and seeing where God has brought me from and where He is continueing to bring me. And it blows my mind that He would use me to do what I do. I am so blessed and lucky to be a Youth Pastor. Never thought I would be that nor did I think I wanted to do that. But I am loving it. And I am loving seeing what God is doing in our lives, the lives of the youth, and also the lives of the college kids in our church. The one thing that I struggle with the most is haveing to preach on Sunday nights. I am going to try something a little new this week. I am going to just preach from the heart. I know that is a no brainer to some of you and you are wondering.."Well why didnt you just do that from the start?" Because I am a idiot thats why. I see how my dad preaches and how my brother preaches, and even how our Pastor here at this church preach. And they are AMAZING. I just get up there and read. I want to preach like them. I have been really working on this next sermon and praying about things and just evaluating why I am actually doing this. Do I totally trust Jesus? Am I doing this because I said I would follow him? Cause if I am doing it for any other reason then I am doing no justice to the Church as a whole. I am more of a hindering block. I want to be so much like Jesus that when people have a conversation with me, they will know who and what I stand for. They will know im a christian by my love. An amazing person from my church has emailed me and said some things that really sunk in. This person reminded me that I am not my dad, or my brother but that I am Pastor Scot. And God called me to do this for Him. And i need to accept that call and get going with it. Of course it was worded much more profoundly. Then I was thinking....ya know...I know this is what God called me to do. But am I really the type that God wants to lead?? Then this scripture came to my head:(message version)
1 Corinthians 1: 26-29
Take a good look, friends, at who you were when you got called into this life. I dont see many of "the brightest and the best" among you, not many influential, not many from high-society families. Isnt it obvious that God deliberately chose men and woman that the culture overlooks and exploits and abuses, chose these "nobodies" to expose the hollow pretensions of the "somebodies"? That makes it quiet clear that none of you can get by with blowing your own horn before God.
So that made it quit clear. I am doing this for Jesus. I dont have to preach like my dad or brother. As long as I am following Him, I cant go wrong.
Man, how many times is He going to have to remind me? He chooses who He feels is equiped for the job. Why do we doubt so much?
~Learning As I Go~